Still here

I have been trying to spend time with my family. I feel terrified of these injections the drs are talking about. Afraid of something going wrong and becomming paralyzed. I'm trying not to think of them so much. Trying to keep my mind busy. I made it through my MRI without having to stop the test. The machine was an open view machine and about 10 times quieter than a regular mri machine. I had 11 tubes of blood drawn to check for thryoid problems and to possibly get an "official" daignosis on the fibromyalgia. Thursday i return to STAR for the results of the testing i have been doing. I am really nervous and anxious about that appointment because thats where they will tell me how the tests came back and lay out my treatment options if there are any that may help. I think living like this has made me both a better and worse person. I hope the treatment options are there; and I can just be a better person.